The Recovery Process

Amnesia insulates the dreamer from the truth it can’t be a person. Without amnesia, it would be one with the truth and the game of TAG, or "The Anti-truth Game" would be over. If defending the fiction dreamers are ‘real people’ is "The Main Event" in this dream, amnesia is mandatory. If a dreamer is going to wake up in this dream, it has to turn its canoe around and go back upstream, through the eddies of amnesia to come out on the other side into the clear light of truth: Mind is "The Big Picture" because it is the source of this fantasy called "reality," including ‘the lives the dreamers are having in this dream.’

Dreamers posing as ‘real people’ in this dream have a right to run scared: we hide the truth we are imposters to prolong the fiction the game of TAG is a winnable game. If no dreamer can be a person, no matter what it does in the dream to implement that fiction, the game isn’t winnable. The dreamers know this, so the real game includes pretending we don’t know the game isn’t winnable so we can use time to drag out the fiction the game is winnable. To see this clearly is to identify the origin of comedy. How can a dreamer impostering a person become one? The discrepancy between the truth and the charade is fear.

I was thinking about all this with respect to Posttraumatic Stress Disorder. As the soldiers come home, this diagnosis will fill the news. Some will recover, but most will deal with it for the rest of their lives.

It is highly unlikely the military will be willing to make the shift from reality is real to reality is content in a dream. The dreamer’s first line of defense, thanks to amnesia, is to pretend we don’t know control not only doesn’t exist, but in the context of a dream, it isn’t even relevant. Dreamers defend the fiction control exists because we rely on this myth to maintain the fiction someone exists to have it, or even "lose it." It’s much more likely that we "lose it" precisely because we don’t have it. Amnesia guards the fiction control exists because dreamers rely on this myth to defend the myth of personal existence. If you recover the truth control doesn’t exist, doesn’t this interface with the next segment of truth which is control in the absence of people is impossible. For the average dreamer, the myth of control is essential for the myth of existence. They go together like bread and butter. None of this upsets people: only dreamers devoted to the defense of the fiction that’s what they are.

Your average home-bound dreamer enjoys a system that keeps the fiction in place control exists, and we have it. The invented self fills time with the comedic parody of control, ranging from bragging, machismo, all forms of superiority, grandstanding, name dropping, dare devil recklessness, and on and on. We all know instinctively we are witnessing a comedy, but in defense of the lie control exists, we take a vow of silence to avoid wandering through amnesia into the land of truth. "The Main Event" in this dream features the sum of what the dreamers do to circumvent remembering "existence," in the absence of people, this being a dream, is pure comedy. Is there anything a dreamer in a dream can do to ultimately prove control exists? The game of TAG isn’t winnable because no dreamer will prove this is not a dream and that he or she is the person they work so hard to portray in this dream. TAG can’t cancel truth; all it can do is pretend truth is false, or it will go away if we ignore it. If truth is ‘everything,’ as Mind, you tell me how anything dreamers do in this dream can revoke that fact, especially when Mind authors the game of TAG as part of ‘everything?’

In this dream, ‘death’ is the primary reminder that control doesn’t exist. We know it is mandatory in this dream, and that the dream includes "living" as one part of the dream, and "dying" as the other event in the dream. Neither has anything to do with people. Both are content in this dream. If you appear, the odds are excellent you will do both, and if you can see your face in a mirror, you are still doing the "living" part. When you can’t see your face, it could be your time in the dream is over.

What happens to your average dreamer when he or she shows up in a war? The myth of control is taxed by the sights and sounds of imminent death. Is death the problem, or does the daily threat of death punch a hole through amnesia to expose what we normally dismiss: that there is no such thing as control. The dream will unfold the way the dream will unfold, and it doesn’t ask the dreamers "how do you like this part?"

Perhaps there would be no "Posttraumatic Stress" if this insight took us to its source: nothing ‘going on’ has, had or will ever have anything to do with people." There is no one to be in jeopardy. The dream features "jeopardy," and the more a dreamer clings to the fiction "someone is in jeopardy," the greater the stress. Is stress the truth there are no people, or the consequence of defending the fiction that’s not true. Being in a war, which is about as real as ‘this’ can get, must elevate the existential moment: are people in jeopardy, or is the lie people exist in jeopardy? It begins to look like the stress is a delayed, re-played response to almost coming to terms with the truth ‘everything’ is content in a dream, including war.

One man reported that he felt like he was "coming apart." In the absence of people, who exists to "come apart?" What seems more likely, is that the collection of parodies dreamers rely on to prolong the fiction "reality" is real, and not content in a dream, start to come unglued as the high, no control moments of endless combat puts us face to face with the truth we seek to dismiss: that we use time to wage war with truth and truth is the winner no matter what we do in the dream to dismiss it. Pretending we don’t know the war against truth isn’t winnable may be what "stress" is all about. Once the soldiers come home, they live in limbo, somewhere between almost knowing the truth, and still trying to pretend truth is false. I don’t think we can have it both ways.

The first question I would ask a soldier with PTSD is, "tell me about those moments when you almost got it control doesn’t exist." A torrent of feeling might ensue that brings on the healing of sharing our inherent sense of vulnerability. We don’t run anything and dismissing that fact only postpones our date with that fact. You can cry about it, shout out "that stinks," which is all good, but when you bingo on the truth, we remember we are one with the truth, and not outside of it, pretending what we do will work to prove it is false. Defending duality, as if it is real, takes it toll on our health in this dream.

In this dream, TAG treats truth as "the enemy," as judged by how we rely on amnesia to pretend truth doesn’t exist, or it is false. The comedy of tragedy comes into view the minute you remember that truth, as Mind, authors "The Whole Show," including us using time to give truth a hard time. If a dreamers with PTSD got this, would they shift from fear to humor, and if they did, wouldn’t that provide a clear clue that "reality" is not what most of us insist it is?

As long as we think people exist to be "treated," how can we get results? Dreamers need "treatment" because everything we do in the dream to prolong the fiction we are the people we insist we are, is a Parody. It takes a lot of energy to be who we aren’t instead or who we are and can only be. Pretending we don’t know what the truth is, when truth is what we are, is the epitome of stress.

By: Dr. Gregory Tucker